Frustration

So far my blog posts have been happy and shiny. Today's post will not be that way. I'm frustrated. I don't understand. I was hoping and praying and putting all of my hopes and dreams into a job that I thought for sure I would at least have a chance of getting. I thought God was directing me to this place. I thought wrong I suppose. I know I'm supposed to have faith and believe He will provide, but that is really hard sometimes. I'm a little angry. I'm not going to lie. The position has been filled, and as far as I can tell, there are no more positions that I qualify for anywhere. I have struggled for over five years to become a teacher and to get my career started. I'm thirty years old and I still have nothing to show for myself. Why is this so hard? Is it because I missed the calling God put on my life? Am I not supposed to be a teacher? I'm starting to think the answer to that is no. The thing is, I don't know what else I would do with myself. I have a Master's Degree in Education, but qualify for no other job other than teaching???? I was just searching on the internet for what I could do with this degree, and I came up with NOTHING. What do I do now? What's the next step in my life? Dear God I'm crying out to you! Please give me some kind of answer. I'm at a loss. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of hoping. I'm tired of wishing for so many things in my life. Could just one thing work out for me? Just one? Yes. This is a pity party. Welcome. I desperately need your prayers. I don't know that anyone reads this, but if you do I'm earnestly asking for your prayers for guidance. I'm hurting.